I had a weird feeling tonight. It was half pain and half apathy. That means I am on the road to recovery. Talking to Elizabeth is still a bit awkward because I want to say all those things to her that I used to and I can't. I don't want false hope and I don't want to make her feel awkward having some guy who she doesn't care about the same way anymore still falling for her. I am not that guy. I bought her Harry Potter 6 before the breakup and told her to keep it so we could talk about it and such. Her away message tonight was "reading harry potter and thinking of you". Since I bought it I thought for a brief instant it was referring to me but reality kicked in and reminded me those days are long gone. It still makes my stomache hurt but it is better and better. I think of what I have in store. I think of all the things that will/can happen to me in the next year. That makes me happy. Love can sprout from anywhere. I like love. I look forward to meeting it again.

Until then, I need to forgive and forget and move on. That is what my horoscope said today. Elizabeth's was about her dreams. Talk about hitting the nail on the head. I hate those things.

Harry Potter. Not that great. It was good but it wasn't the best. I finished it in 27 hours. If I didn't have to drive back from Boston Sunday it would have been sooner. It was so quick and not much happened. I have some sick speculations. If someone can tell me how to do the little link thing I will post them so as not to spoil anything. Let's just say I am not convinced of people's roles on sides and who is dead and alive.

I am going to be in a band for one night plaing trumpet during one song. I am a rock star! I can also hit a high G on trupet now. Practice practice practice!

Bed time for me. My favorite part of life right now. Good night.